THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Apr 27, 2016 21:04:47 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
16
" You give me just a taste so I want more and more, now my hands are bleeding and my knees are raw
"
Girls. Fuck them. Seriously... Like this EDEN KELLY-KENNEDY chick, good fucking god she is a straight up crazy bitch. Few screw loose up top, has to be.
There I was minding my own business eating food in the canteen and she sits near me and gets all kissy faced... Long story short she pisses me off enough that I have to smack her in the face with my plate and almost slit her throat before stabbing her.
But the thing is, she wanted me to do it. She kept on at me... And I gave in.
She used me. I feel so damn dirty.
Then she goes screaming to the guards and I end up in solitary, again.
But it doesn't matter. I will get her back. Fucking bitch going to damn wish she never met me.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Jun 19, 2016 20:05:10 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
17
"Who am I to change events, with no mind for consequence"
Well, it wasn't who I intended to get revenge on but she filled a need... Another girl (dear fuck, I do seem to attract these crazies bitches), was out sitting in my lawns and blocking the views with her face. CHRISTINA TRI'ANDA ROMANOV was her name I think... I asked her nicely to leave and she didn't.
So really she deserved all that came her way. I did warn her that she shouldn't challenge me to do things. And I know im right in saying that I tell all my guards to make sure other people are not out when I am, it is only fair since I so rarely get allowed out that I don't have to have vampires uglying up my view.
Though she does have some Fae blood too, kinda sickens me... Really, why pollute a perfectly good species with vampire? Her parents should have been castrated. Still, unless you teach lessons, how is anyone meant to learn? She now knows not to fuck with me. That if I want someone out of my sight, I will get them out of my sight one way or another.
I'm looking at three weeks in solitary. No big deal, I have done more.
I still plan on getting Eden, just this event has put a slight delay on proceedings.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Jul 2, 2016 21:48:31 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
18
"The Art Of Telling Lies"
A lot of people think that because I am a Fae that I am incapable of deceit. That is not technically true. I am just incapable of lying... there is a difference. I don't know why this is, frankly I have never given a shit.
If it some physical attribute born into us like how the fluff-creatures go all moondrunk when its full or just a psychological state that has just become ingrain in our brains, that lying is bad, truth is good and nobody saw reason to change the status quo.
I have never actually tried lying. I mean a straight up, to you face, saying shit is blue when it is red kind of bold face lie. I have wanted to but before I knew it some other smart arse answer came out that was not helpful but not a lie technically either. Maybe I should make more effort.
For that reason I think this trait is something physical with us, like our brains just are not wired for it.
I guess it is a good thing... Us Fea are natures tricksters, type to fuck with you for a laugh when we are bored, god giving us the ability to lie would just cause anarchy.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Jul 4, 2016 18:05:50 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
19
"Out of a fucked up head comes a perfect world"
Lets talk about glamour. Another fun little trick us Fae can use and abuse. Somehow, making someone think a pile of dirt is chocolate cake and getting them to eat it, is not seen as a lie but just taking advantage of most species dumb-arse and easy to manipulate brains.
It is not a trick I have used much so not really sure if I can, and besides if I want someone to eat dirt I would just shove it in there face. But I can see its usefulness, and it is nice being able to shape things how you want to see them even on a small scale.
I mean, as a kid I was told plenty of stories about Fae switching some lovers partner for a log, and that lover being none the wiser. Mostly the Fae did it from jealousy or to get revenge... We are a vengeful breed, I would admit that.
But I feel we have a right to be, if Vampires are not hunting us down to get all goody off our blood, some fucking idiot is kicking apart our homes (well, not mine, I lived in an actual house) ancestral homes I meant.... and trampling into our Fae rings.
Oh yeah, that shit is real. Cross the ring, we get to fuck you up is how it works. After all it is a clear sign of disrespect, like doing the nasty on someones grave or TPing there house.
Anyway, back to Glamour. It really is just a trick. I don't think any species apart from another Fae can see through it. Maybe another Earth bound creature... We can use it to hide in plain sight if we are out in nature. Just make yourself look like the trees around you. Its real useful for hiding out from the guards. They are all pretty stupid, doesn't take much to fool them. I feel like I should try and use it more.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Sept 10, 2016 20:33:40 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
20
"You say I'm familiar, cold to touch"
She is back. Its been a while but we seem to have crossed paths again. CAROLINE DEANDRA HALE . That baboon-arse-red haired vampire-bitch. As if my life wasn’t shitty enough… I swear, that woman is as crazy if not crazier then I am. Damn cold hearted too. An enabler.
You see, not that many days ago I was not feeling myself. Its the meds, the screw with my head if the dose is wrong. Anyway, I was mostly minding my own fucking business, completely out my mind but causing no harm, and she goes and dumps some cat-shifter in front of me.
I know I told her I wanted and was going to stab someone but she didn’t have to go and actually bring me a resident! I mean, I likely would have found someone myself eventually or just got distracted by a butterfly.. meds give me that kind of mood you see.
Anyway, I had no choice but to do what I said and stab the girl.. who had blue hair, bright fucking blue! Must be a trend with the chicks to dye hair freaky colours. Bit stupid if you ask me.
But yeah, I made her bleed a lot. If I didn’t I would have been a liar and as I wrote in an earlier entry, lying is very bad. The good thing about the whole situation was that she didn’t scream, Caro knows how to pick a good victim, only good thing about the bitch.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Nov 13, 2016 16:06:12 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
21
"At school they taught me how to be, so pure in thought and word and deed... They didn’t quite succeed"
It is fun to mess with people. I haven't done it for so long either. No, really I haven't! Not willingly anyway.
Over the past few months a lot of residents, mainly girls, have been approaching me and causing me to react to them in ways that are less then pleasant. Through no fault of my own they forced my hand.. To beat, punch or stab them. Yes, a more recent encounter I did ask for a victim to be brought to me but I was off my head at that point so hardly think that was my fault.
The most recent incident if you want to call it that though was purely me being a dick. I have no shame admitting that. It was hilarious too. In a random way though that could too be blamed on another, the guards, who really should know better then to put another in a holding cell with me, especially not a 'virgin' vampire. I mean, what the hell else was I supposed to do with this guy, who clearly needs his tongue cut out, boasting about how smart he is, and who admits to having no clue what a Fae is?
I mean, if I didn't educate him someone else would later, someone less generous then me since all I did was encourage him to taste my blood, just so he knew what it might do to him. And it does vary depending on the vampire, so his over the top craziness was a slight surprise to me too. Still funny though.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Dec 30, 2016 17:14:23 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
22
"You're lovin' on the psychopath sitting next to you"
Christmas wasn't too bad this year. I didn't get any cards or gifts... Santa is a bitch. But I was gifted to a night of entertainment courtesy of the guards in the High Risk wards.
I mean really... They gather a group of the most sadistic and psychotic individuals Manson has to offer in one room and they expected everyone to play nicely? To be honest for the first half hour things seemed to be going good, it was boring as hell though so I thought I would start some entertainment. Now im not claiming to be the soul cause of the shit-show that erupted, that would be a little arrogant and slightly untrue but I like to think I played a central part.
I just can't help it if my natural personality is so damn attractive that girls flock to me. I was more then happy to let them both CAROLINE DEANDRA HALE and CHRISTINA TRI'ANDA ROMANOV have me too but they don't seem to like each other much and then Chrissy got all pissed off... actually you can blame her for starting all the mess. It was her kicking off over a totally accidental bonk on the nose that got me moved to sitting staring at a wall. Caro then sat next to me, but then she her cuff taken off (bloody unfair that was) and got up like she was going to leave which was what really upset me... That was the only reason I started bleeding.
Next thing I know vampires are all around me and biting me, Caro is carried off, Christina is dragged away and another vampire is sedated while CLIVE HENDRICKS starts feeling me up. He a weirdo that man. Left here for years and then came back. Must be nuts.
So yeah, an entertaining night. Oh and a guard got his neck snapped.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Mar 4, 2017 21:45:33 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
23
"My lover's got humour She's the giggle at a funeral. Knows everybody's disapproval... I should've worshipped her sooner"
It is official. I never thought I would do it but it has happened. What I was smoking that day god only knows. Think it was being out in the woods, it made my brain go to mush. Still... CAROLINE DEANDRA HALE and myself are now joined. Married, if you like.
Going to let that sink in for everyone for a while.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Jun 19, 2017 17:41:14 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
24
"It all ends in oblivion"
For a number of months some real freaky people have been stalking the academy and making notes of everyone, staff included it seemed. Apparently Manson was due an inspection and whatever resulting grade we got would determined if the place stayed open or everyone got moved. Its been at least two or three months since I first saw the white coats and clip boards, Manson hasn't shut down so I guess it did not fail... Either this place is better then it seems or whatever place the Inspectors are from has some shitty low standards. Or maybe someone got bribed?
Anyway, changes are coming. Some more building work is going on and people I used to see in the Secure Facility are no longer in there rooms. CAROLINE DEANDRA HALE had vanished too, I had no idea where that bitch had gone to but was thinking that if she was hanging out with some other guy she going to be fucking sorry, then I found out she been taken to the Snake Pit. Don't know what she did to get herself there.... well I can imagine actually... Have to say I am proud of her (: And a little surprised at the staff. Maybe there is a magic number of guards you have to kill before they think they need to actually lock a person away? Caro had to be nearing double digits.
But like I said, I am proud of her. Not many are deranged enough to be taken to the Pit. I might have to meet her down there... Guards have been muttering to me about being on my last warning so shouldn't be hard to get down there. Though, it would mean no daylight for a while. And if things are being taken more seriously then I am not sure it would be a quick trip. Its been weeks since I saw Caro so I guess she spent all that time down there.
...No matter where your lady goes you got to follow and keep an eye on them, even if that means going into hell.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Sept 7, 2017 13:28:20 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
25
"Leave me naked on the floor Making violence - I need more"
Life has settled again. Caro is out the Pit, I did join her down there for a little while although I did not see her there personally. It seems they got some new shock-collar on her, kind of thing that if she gets out of control she gets a load of volts going through her that knocks her out. Sounds like a fun toy, im going to need to see if I can steal the controls for it.
More recently came to join me in the woods near my Ring. Im glad she did as there was some fucking ugly bitch trespassing her way through to it, almost touched it to. I smacked her with a flute (the trespasser, not Caro... though I did hit her too but that was for fun rather then to hurt her... well hurt her in a fun way..) anyway this nymphy woman claimed to be blind and just not know my ring was there, which I knew was a fucking lie as she found her way through the trees just fine. So yeah I hit her and pinned her down and that got her away but then all these bloody animals that seemed to be around her like she is Snow Fucking White started pelting twigs at me and her dog got all growly. No idea why, she is the invader, I have right to defend my property. That was when Caro showed actually, just after I showed a little mercy to the invader by letting her go, stupid people can't help being ignorant after all. Caro seemed to want to chat but the other woman had other ideas and left soon after... I didn't mind really, I had made my point.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Oct 21, 2017 10:51:04 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
26
"You're in love with a psycho - Tu amor es muy loco And there's nothing you can do about it - I got you running all around it"
I like October. I like Autumn. The colours are amazing, the weather might be crap but there are still nice days. And everything is dying, giving way to new life if the spring. There is something beautiful about that.
If only people were similar... When they get ugly and old, you can bump them off and get a newer nicer version a few months later. Of course I know that once you kill a person they stay killed (most of the time anyway, Manson people have an annoy habit of getting up unharmed), but it is just, some the only thing they have going for them is that they won't be around forever.
Anyway, I have been thinking a few things over lately, about my own life, about my wife's life. I have been hearing things, rumours that I know I should ignore but its getting harder each day. Just small stuff. Things she has been doing, people that are apparently looking for her.
I know that she would never cheat. She is not a stupid woman. But I never really thought about anyone from her past coming back. I can't put the fear of god into everybody to stay the fucking hell away as that bitch is claimed now, I'm only one man.
If I learned anything from my father it is that you need to keep your woman on a tight leash purely for there own good, lock them in, beat them, threaten them, anything it takes to get compliance. There are any number of monsters out there that would take any trace of happiness from you and stomp on it into the dirt. Unlike my father, I won't use fear on Caro, she is smart enough to listen to reason.
But maybe I need to put Caro down for the winter? It would be a good way to make sure she stays in her cell. Before it gets pointed out, I know I could voice my concerns and ask her to be careful, I know my bitch, she never be able to keep a lid on her bloodlust for so long and it would be far crueler to ask her to try for that.
I need a month. Whoever is out to get her probably will get bored by then. Being that she is undead, she be one of the things that pops back up unharmed again. I just couldn't bare to see her hurt though by anyone else.
Thing is, I'm not really sure even how to knock a vampire out for a few hours hour. My blood is a little toxic to them but only in a sense it makes them drunk. I doubt I have enough to mean Caro goes into a hangover for more then a day.
All these problems, I never have signed up to husbandry if I new it would bring these problems.
Maybe I need to get that shock collar back on her? She broke free from it recently but from what she said, that thing kept her controlled, even made her pass out.
If nothing else it give me an excuse to play with it in a fun way with her, then if it seems a good option, turn up the voltage. Im sure Caro will understand. Eventually at least. I only do any things for someone's own good. If not... well I have been practicing lies. I can find a way to tell her that making her pass out was accidental.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Dec 22, 2017 20:45:33 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
27
"Jingle bells, Batman smells..."
I got the collar and the remote... Haven't done anything with it yet since all the talk about whoever is after her has died down. I rather hold on and wait until I really need to use it, if the threat rises up again. I also had the idea of using it for Christmas, maybe surprising her with it in the fun way I previously mentioned... wrapping the collar up in a nice box and bow but then figured she must break it in two once she opens the gift before I can explain the reason for it all. So I got her something else too... Not given it to her yet though, waiting for the right time with that too I guess. I get the feeling she is not really a fan of this time of year, not that I really blame her.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Feb 10, 2018 20:53:14 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
28
"O Rose thou art sick..."
CAROLINE DEANDRA HALE has been avoiding me. I don't know why... Is she mad? What could I possibly have done to make her mad? But she isn't around much and I miss her. It isn't right for a wife to be away from her husband for so long, especially this month. Its only a few short days until valentines day.. a day when its practically law that partners bed each other, a day in the past I just wanted to vomit all over. But I was dumb back then, I didn't have Caro... If I do find that bitch I am going to have to lay down some more ground rules.
I wonder if the staff are keeping her away still? She did visit fairly recently and she did have a guard with her... For whatever reason she was being nice to them, no cuff snapping or even neck snapping. I think they much have her drugged up, she wasn't acting like my Caro. Fuck, I hope she isn't letting them change her. She is perfect the way she is.
Look at me, writing all this soppy stuff. I need to get out of my own head, go for a walk, maybe talk to a few people. Not that anyone here is really worth speaking to but they are good for a laugh.
For example, there was a pretty big fight recently in the halls, a lot of blood was spilt as a few students lost there shit over something stupid. I am kinda sad I missed out on it. Not so much the taking part (I have self control after all, unlike them, I don't stab willy-nilly) but just watching. I am not shy to admit that it is the kind of thing that gets me going... I probably shouldn't think too much on it though, Caro isn't around to receive any of my affection.
Is she cheating on me? I don't know why but the idea has just come to me. If people don't talk to you, like wives or girlfriends, it often is as they are cheating or wanting to break up with you.
No. She wouldn't. She knows I would kill her if she even hinted it (thats how you keep them you see), women often don't know what is good for them so you have to make them understand by any means needed. And Caro needs me.
Im sure there is a logical reason for this absence.
Im not feeling so good now. Can't be fucked to write more.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Apr 6, 2018 22:33:58 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
29
"dum dum dummy dum dum dum"
I feel great. Really fucking good. I think my problem has been that I was trying too hard, trying to be something I am not. I realised now how pointless it really is. Let's face it nobody is a saint, take god for example, surely the biggest mass murderer in history. Yet nobody says he/she/it isn't good enough or should do better... so with that in mind, I am just going to be myself again. Of course keep the wife happy but other then that I am looking out for number one.
A little while ago I kinda let loose, a cathartic release. It started after I saw two vampires going at it in the canteen, and not in a fun way. Clearly the two had bad history. After asking around I found out that the skinny one was apparently a druggy, total coward to, gave up his mate to a vampire gang for drugs.
I couldn't let a personality like that get away from me. Somebody like that is never going to say not to anything. I need a person like that. If I am going to keep sane I need to indulge occasionally and it will be better, kinder even to keep the abuse to one person.
Maybe I as better then god? I only have one victim, currently at least, and I have never murdered anyone.
Long story short, I got him high on my blood. Idiot didn't know how potent it was. He will be back for more. No I don't feel guilty. Weasel deserves it. I mean trading off your best mate... it's so callous in surprised I haven't done it myself already. But then guess if I'm better then god I'm for sure better morally then Weasel.
|
|
THE VIOLENT
Member is: offline |
Enrolled: May, 2005
|
|
Gender:
|
ID Number: 04010-88
Student Fae RISK LEVEL: 5+
Latest Status:
Being friendly...ish
Posts: 830
|
Post by ZACK BENEDICT MØRK on Jul 15, 2018 17:30:58 GMT 1
diary of a madman --------------------------------
30
"Oh it turns you on, on..."
For the past few months some weird things have been going on around Manson, weirder then usual at least. People are reporting voices in there head and random fights have broken out between students. Yes I know it sounds like another day in paradise around here but stay with me... all that happened, then someone said there was this ghost or shadow or something creepy lurking around near the grounds and soon after the lake started drying up. Weird right? I blamed the heat wave (which ironically people don't seem to think is weird, despite that this is the UK and all) anyway sidetrack...
Er yeah the lake was drying up and some red-haired Nymph woman, KAIA DINAH AMARANTH? (really should pay attention to names) who apparently lives in the lake comes trespassing into my greenhouse demanding I help her! Me! She is lucky I did not cave her head in with a shovel. Thinking back on it, I'm not sure why I did not. I did my usual countdown to warn her it was coming but then she started blubbering about her lake and its dying or some shit, wasn't really paying full attention.
So I drop the shovel and against my best judgement I agree to go take a closer look at what is going on. She seems to think that since I'm Fae I might have insider knowledge (I don't) and even after looking and giving my opinion she still isn't happy.
All I said was that I think she is fucked and that she should stop trying to save the lake as clearly it isn't helping, and I thought if this creepy thing is using it as a power source, she should stop feeding into it. Sound logic, am I right? Kaia thought not, threatens me actually. Which I didn't mind but it is not a great thank you, is it?
Between all this she accuses me of being a part of what this thing is doing too... 'Getting up with it' I think were here words, I assume she meant 'getting off with it', which I am not doing either,
I honestly don't know how I stand all these accusations and not just flip out on a murder spree. People don't give me enough credit for holding my temper. I corrected her saying I wouldn't be subtle about it if I was fucking around with people, I would just stab them as it is easier, for sure wouldn't stay hiding like this shadow thing is doing, and of course the grounds would never be my target. As much as I hate people I love the grounds around here.
Anyway, I promised I would tell her if I notice anything else odd going on. It's the Fae in me, it might be on the dark side but we all love nature. Fuck with that and you fuck with us all, and we don't play nice.
|
|